I will always feel kind of bad….

Because I haven’t been able to purchase all of the NaNoWriMo group’s books that interest me. Often, it actually boils down to the simple fact that I don’t even make the minimum of a living wage where I live, so I generally have to choose between which bill here and there and eating.

I wanted to post to one of the wrimos today that if they would link me to their book on Amazon, I’d see if it fit into my too small budget this week, and if it did, come payday, I’d buy it. That’s usually how it is, and right now, most of my book purchases are currently planned out for the next three months. (Kate Mulgrew’s Born With Teeth, is the major splurge – I’ll be buying that hardback – so it’ll be over $25 – which I’ve already got mostly saved as a tiny little gift to myself.)

But the fact of the matter is: for March and April, I’m not sure how I’m going to be able to pay all of my bills for the month. I’m going to be around $75 short on just the bills, that doesn’t include me eating.

I’m looking into more work or a different job that might be able to give me better hours for monday thorough friday, but right now it’s not looking good. As of right now, I need to find a way to bring in an extra 40 per month, and I’ll manage to stay barely in the green. (barring any surprises – which I’m sadly all to good at getting surprises.)